Random Notes

First: Where are you, beautiful spring day? I am ready for winter to be over. Call me when it will be a steady 65 degrees+. I will be in my dark room hibernating/reading/avoiding my life. But seriously, all I really want to do is take long adventurous walks with people that I know. Not just the usual walk around my neighborhood or the orchard, but hiking in the Lehigh Valley, maybe a portion of the Appalachian Trail. Along the Brandywine river, perhaps. How about navigating Philadelphia on a warm, sunny-but-not-too-sunny-that-I-squint-excessively kind of day? Fu-u-u-ck cold, fuck winter. I believe the bears and the squirrels have the right idea: stuff your face and sleep sleep sleep.

Second: Oh how my mind loves to wallow in anguish over my, weird, weird, bipolar and totally naive past relationship! Increasingly, all I can do is ugh and then guffaw at how the fuck I spent seven months of my life. To you, if you reading this, which I doubt you are because you told me you don't care, I am sorry if this pisses you off, but I really really need to be expressive right now. Where new feelings become suppressed, old feelings need to be screamed at in sans-serif font...on a blog...for people to read. I usually try to avoid the bitching about an ex or females in general, especially on the internet, but I am in a state of great inner turmoil. I am afraid of getting myself into anything like that again! But obviously there's hope. Something like 3.5 billion fish in the sea. Right? Or I could play it like Stuart Murdoch who is a very wonderful and cool human being.

Third: Sons and Daughters are a great Scottish folky/punky/minimal-rock-n-rolly outfit that I love love love dearly. Their lyrics are mysterious, their guy/girl harmonies evoke John Doe and Exene Cerevenka of X (whom I also love dearly), and they keep. it. simple. Their music has held me tight since the beginning of junior year and they are coming out with a new record in a few weeks. It's bound to be awesome. Too bad their stateside tour brings them to Johnny Fucking Brenda's, oh my goddddd. What happened to the good old all ages show?

I'm in a state of flux but despite the mess I'm incredibly happy and I like where things are heading with everything, aside from the path toward school. So you too be happy, please, even though it's winter and deep down, you know it sucks.